I am at a loss.
I said I was done stressing out about the sleep issue.
I lied.
I am stressed out about it. Somewhere along the way she has gotten her days and nights confused. Again.
I guess.
Although it's not like she's really that great of a sleeper during the day.
But lately over the last couple weeks she has been regressing and getting up every two hours starting around 1 am. Sometimes less than two hours. And getting her back to sleep is a challenge. She only wants to eat. I am pretty sure she's not hungry an hour after she just ate!
What in the hell happened?
She was sleeping for at least six hours at a time.
I guess if I was honest with myself I would say I know what happened.
I created bad sleep habits out of laziness and exhaustion.
Nothing like being screamed at for hours at night to make one take the easy road.
But lets be honest. The girl has a strong-willed personality/temperament/attitude. I respect a strong will and knowing what you want...except when you're 13 pounds. Then I deem it not cool.
So here I am at 14 weeks with a bit of regret and sleepless nights.
Sure. This too shall pass.
I have read the books. I have searched the Internet. Some would say it's information overload. I would agree but what is one to do when their kid isn't sleeping and you just want answers.
Unfortunately, there just aren't answers b/c no kid is alike but I keep looking. But I will keep searching b/c there must be something to self inflicted torture!
And I never wanted to be the parent that compares my kid to other similar aged kids as I know they all do things in their own time. But I guess I am only human. I am so envious of the people I talk to whose kid sleeps through the night it makes me want to cry. Seriously cry.
I know everyone was their own trials and tribulations, but this is mine. And since it's my party I will cry if I want to. Don't worry I don't really cry that much!
Yes, I am having a bit of a pity party for myself but like I said it's my party. I am not looking for pity. I am just looking for an outlet for my frustration.
Good night.
Don't worry - I will be fine in the morning!