The trenches

I feel like I am so far in the trenches of babyhood that I can't see the light. I know it's around the corner. I know that each day should get easier but this little munchkin is wearing me out. I don't understand these people who say they have 'easy babies'. I want to punch those people. I don't understand babies who just sit calmly in a car seat, a stroller, on a lap, anywhere...ever.  Kit-Kat hates a car seat, a stroller, a lap or anything that keeps her contained and down.  

She screams all day. I think there's just so much screaming around here that she thinks it's how humans communicate.  It is how we communicate but only b/c I spend 90% of my day playing referee between kids.  Lately I am just so tired of the constant negotiations, yelling, no one listening.  Kids are insane. I frequently tell the kids they are insane or crazy.  This recently came back to bite me when Miss M told Nick and Callie that her mom was crazy. Well. I am totally crazy but I am not crazy enough to be worried about...yet.  

Kids getting messy due to feeding themselves was cute with child #1 but with child #3 it's just a pain. It means a bath instead of straight to bed.  

She is crazy.  

I also caught her climbing stairs the other day. I wanted to curl into the fetal position. I am not ready for the battle of the stairs with this muffin.  The stairs are essentially baby proofed but for baby proofing to really work I need everyone in the house to remember to shut doors and toilet lids and gates.  These people aren't reliable. I know how they operate.

It was essential I showered one day last week (the days all run together) and so I let her just cruise around. She almost immediately went to playing in the toilet water like it was her own personal water table. I couldn't do anything but watch and be happy she was quiet and I could watch her to ensure she didn't fall in. 

I think #3 is going to kill me. I am terrified for what's to come with her.  She eats rocks and mulch and buttons and stale goldfish and everything else she can find.  I am afraid her adventures and stories are only just beginning.